I promise I’ll get better at my lack of consistent blogging one day. However exciting things are happening and I can’t wait to share them with you all! At the beginning of July I wasn’t my best self but I was on the struggle bus to unhappiness, but things are looking up, they always were. Over these few months God has shown me that He always has my best interest at heart and when He does, I always feel that its necessary to share with you.
God has removed, rearranged and reintroduced so many people into my life in these last few months its crazy. I’ve seen more inspirational posts about growth than I care to revisit in my mind. Mos of them are about cutting people off and knowing your worth, but they don’t mater until you are at a point where enough has become enough. You have to push yourself and make the move to become the happiest you for you and whoever is supposed to be around you, whoever deserves to share that happiness and feel the warmth of your sunshine will gravitate in when they’re supposed to.
You mustn’t fight change. I used to hate change especially change that didn’t bring me immediate happiness. The very thought of it brings about a sadness that sometimes still lingers but I’m getting better. I saw a text post last night and it basically said that you have fall in love with change and growing, in order to progress when you feel you’ve been stuck. EMBRACE! Its way easier said than done, but I absolutely promise that when you do it you’ll feel better. You don’t have to do it all at once, it may come in waves, but you must trust that you can make yourself the happiest you. There will still be ups and downs but if you can grasp this concept it will lighten the load a bit.
You ABSOLUTELY must take risks, and stop holding yourself back. For my first two years at Howard I was totally quiet and shy (I still am but in smaller doses) and was convinced that my writing wasn’t good enough to apply for internships, and my sewing wasn’t good enough to show people or get noticed. I was so so wrong. I started applying for internships in July, secured two by August and one more this week!
Don’t be afraid to try things that aren’t completely on track with what you think you want to do in the future. I never thought i’d be interning for a company in the music industry. There’s always a way to expose yourself to new things while gaining experience in your own craft. I thought I had to have internships based completely on writing, and honestly those can be pretty boring… If you can connect two things that you like go for it! No regrets..
Be selfish with your time, your energy, your space and your love. Don’t keep granting people access to you when they want it. One, they’ll never learn to truly value you because it seems as if you don’t value yourself. This goes for friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, partners and even family members! Yes family can be out of line too some days.
PHEW! Okay now that all of my hopefully helpful tips are out of the way here come the fun parts, unveiling my internships.
First we have my super exciting position as a Style Guru for College Fashionista!!!! I was overjoyed when I heard back from them because as you all know (I think) the fashion world is where I hope to be in the future. Somehow I’ll make a difference in doing so and getting a foot in the door feels mighty fine.
Second I’ll be interning with Live the Biz as a digital marketing intern. Yayyyyyyy for music! The entertainment industry fascinates me so I’m quite intrigued to be exposed to the culture that comes with music. Learning about new artists is always fun for me because sometimes I get tired of mainstream music, its overplayed just saying..
I know I said I had three positions, but I’d like to wait to reveal the last one it hasn’t started yet so I don’t know what I’ll be doing. Just know I’m working and growing trying to prepare myself to make the world a better place!